I took what I thought was my last breath. Unfortunately, it was not. There were to be more excruciating, laborious attempts to draw in air into my fatigued frame. As I hung naked on the cross, the pains in my arms and feet overtook every ounce of shame. The people jeered and booed. Those closest threw spittle. The Chief Priests ranted, shaking their fists angrily at the person who appeared the sole subject of today's execution. A rabbi named Jesus. I was nailed to his right. On his left hung Timaeus, my best friend.
"Zadok."
The distinct, sonorous voice floated to my ears amidst the noisy crowd. On seeing her, I felt my heart tear into a million shreds.
"Abigail!" I screamed. "I did this for you."
I could see the sorrow in her face. She nodded in assent, all the while placing her right hand on her stomach. My face furrowed in confusion until suddenly, it hit me. She was pregnant! My eyes widened in surprise and I knew I had my answer when she smiled. I was not dying in vain after all.
I met Abigail through an act of fate, a brush with death. The last son of the High Priest, I had grown up to subtly rebel against my father and my priestly brothers. Lacking any form of maternal love, I had charted a new path for myself, to their chagrin and proceeded to become one of the finest cloth merchants in Jerusalem. Timaeus, my childhood friend was my business companion. Together, we journeyed the winding road connecting Jerusalem to Jericho, an opulent town on the plains of the Jordan river. Jericho was well known for its aristocratic taste and I purchased the finest silk and linen there. Done with business, we make our way back to Jerusalem and sell for a huge profit. The road was dangerous and stories of bandits abound but somehow, we never encountered them.
One day, I made the journey alone because Timaeus was sick. I had passed the Judean desert and neared a sharp bend when some men appeared, armed with clubs. I made to turn the donkey but more men came out from the shadows. Dragging me down from my donkey, the stripped me of my clothes and money and battered me with clubs. I was left for dead in a pool of my own blood. A priest came along, full-bearded, cone-shaped turban and all, peered down at me and quietly walked away. A Levite soon appeared, dressed in his white twined tunic and also walked away. I had given up hope when I heard a donkey bray in the distance. A man in velvet robes approached and touched me. Discovering I was alive, he brought wine and bandages and dressed my wounds. He mounted me on his donkey and took me to an inn.
"My name is Ashur. I am from Samaria," the man in velvet robes said, after the inn-keeper had given me a place to rest.
"Zadok," I said with difficulty. "Thank you. May Yahweh...bless you."
He smiled. "You will stay here till you make full recovery. I gave the inn-keeper some money. I will give him the balance when I return from my journey."
I was awoken the next morning by a lovely voice, singing the praises of Yahweh.
"You are awake," she said, looking at me.
I nodded, still stunned by her beauty and serenaded by her voice.
"I am Abigail, Ashur's sister. He sent me to check up on you. I brought you breakfast."
She sang while I ate. We talked till late in the afternoon, when she begged to take her leave.
She was back the next day. And the day after. We discussed everything from the strained Judeo-Samaritan relationship to the right place of worship.
"It is on Mount Gerizim," she said, in mock defiance.
"Of course, you know it is in the Temple in Jerusalem," I insisted, laughing.
"Or in your hearts," Ashur said. He had returned from his journey. "Yahweh lives in our hearts. Jews and Samaritans alike."
I admired the way he reasoned. His travels had definitely made him wiser.
I left the inn and went back to Jerusalem. Everyone had been searching for me and were happy at my return. I narrated my ordeal to them. When I reached the part of being rescued by a Samaritan, my father entered his room. It was signal that he had heard enough. Timeaus, on the other hand, had not. So, I gave him every detail about Abigail and how enamored I have become of her. He patted me on the back.
"I hear Samaritan women are the kindest and sweetest of them all," he said, grinning.
I nodded. I had experienced it first-hand.
I continued to visit Abigail, often in the company of Timaeus. Her father was furious when he found out and forbade me from ever setting foot in his house. We subsequently met at her brother's place. Ashur was in support but incapacitated.
"I am getting married soon," I announced to my family one evening, after dinner.
My father looked up from his seat and smiled. "This is the only reasonable thing you have said in a long while. Who is the girl?"
I took a long pause and looked round the table. My four brothers had stopped eating and were waiting with bated breath.
"Abigail...She is from...um...Samaria." The words were coming out as if glued to my tongue.
My father banged his fist on the table. "Never!" he bellowed.
He rose and entered his room. My brothers followed suit.
I sat alone, stunned by the venom in my father's voice and the coldness of my brothers.
"Zadok, this is becoming hard. This morning, my father threatened to disown me," Abigail said, amidst sobs.
I wiped the tears from her eyes. "They cannot stop us. If Yahweh is for us, who can be against us?"
She brightened up. "No one."
We sang together thereafter.
I knew I needed a plan. Timeaus came up with a seemingly brilliant idea. The only solution would be to run away with Abigail. To a far away land, beyond the Euphrates.
"We will need money. Plenty of it," I said, lost in thought. "And I lost all my savings to those brigands."
"Ask Ashur," he said.
I shook my head. "You think he would finance the abduction of his sister? I don't want to stretch his kindness."
"We will find a way,"he said.
Two days later, as I rose from evening prayers with my brothers, Timaeus called me aside. He was sounding excited.
"We will take some of the temple ornaments. They are made of pure gold and will fetch a huge amount of money to finance your journey," he said.
I dragged him into my room and shut the door. "Have you gone mad? You want us to steal from the temple? To steal from God?"
"It is not necessarily stealing. It is financing a just cause. A labour of love. If Jews were allowed to marry Samaritans this would have been unnecessary. Just think about it."
I spent the whole night thinking about what Timaeus said. I felt betrayed by my family, especially my father. This may be the only way to get at him.
The next morning, we planned our move. That night, disguised as Levites, we entered the temple through its main gate, near the western wall. The golden eagle hanging on the gate was a symbol of Roman protection. We entered the outer area and quickly ascended the stairs into the main temple, my legs softening like jelly with each step. My heart raced, occasionally calmed by the beatific vision of Abigail's face. The pillars were imposing. The roof was adorned with cedar, curiously graven. The entire temple was vacated. We approached the embroidered curtain separating the 'Holy of Holies'. I darted my eyes across the entire breath of the temple. Not a soul. Timaeus parted the curtain and entered. My heart skipped several beats. We have crossed the red line. I joined him. Unfurling a bag, we packed as many golden ornaments as we could find.
We made to leave when the unthinkable happened. A golden lampstand fell and clattered on the ground. Timaeus and I froze, our pupils dilated in horror. Just then, we heard a voice. "Who, in the Lord's name, is in there?"
My face went pale. It was my father. We heard a door close and footsteps approach. In that instant, we bolted, leaving the bag behind. I collided into a figure as I lifted the curtain and we both fell. I made to stand but he was holding me tightly.
"Zadok!" Timaeus called out, looking behind. I cursed under my breath.
"Zadok?" my captor echoed. "My Zadok?"
I knew it was all over and stopped kicking. Moments later, some guards came in with Timaeus.
"We saw this man running away."
"Bind them," Father said. "Assemble the Sanhendrin."
The trial was swift and the penalty, simple. Death. It had been clear to me as soon as we crossed that curtain. Inwardly, I cursed the day I was born. I cursed Timaeus. I cursed my Father and my wimpy brothers. But news of what we did had been overshadowed by another news. Jesus the Nazarene, the famous Rabbi, had been arrested. I have heard Father voice his resentment of the man. I have overheard him plot with other priests and scribes on how to lay traps for him. They wanted him dead and did not pretend about it. We were told he was dragged to Pilate, then to Herod and back to Pilate. That was before we were made to carry our crosses up to Golgotha.
"Zadok! You caused all this!" Timaeus shouted, his voice laden with anguish. "You should have left that Samaritan girl alone."
I felt very sorry for him. He had been a trusted friend. I should not have dragged him into my affair.
"I heard you saved others," Timaeus said to the Rabbi. "Save yourself and save us! Fake king."
"Have you entirely lost respect for God, Timaeus? Can't you see that this man did not deserve this punishment, quite unlike us?"
Timaeus sneered.
I turned to the Rabbi. "Lord, remember me when you get to your kingdom."
He turned to look at me. Love effused from his eyes. "Truly I tell you, today you shall be with me in paradise."
In that instant, I felt peace. I took one last look at the crowd. Father was at the foot of the cross, complete with his ephod and flat-topped turban, shouting obscenities. My brothers stood behind him, shaking their heads. She stood a bit far removed, her purple scarf blowing in the wind. I look at her face again and with every strength in me, tried to return her smile. As I made my voyage to the distant lands, only one memory accompanied me.
Abigail.
©Kelvin Alaneme, 2015. Follow on Twitter @dr_alams.